A slap in the face early one morning.
These words cut deep, "...
there is nother left here for you ...". I am
that useless after all this while.
And when I said before, you'll change, you disagree. But aren't you proving me right? Change of heart, you have.
Yes, I was
very angry and upset when I read the sms from you. How much I'm hurt all this while, this gotta be the
biggest blow you ever gave. I've planned to write a very angry post just for this occasion but a need to feel better made me do otherwise. I know you will be reading this and smilling to yourselve on
how easy for you to shut me off after all this while.
Seriously dude, I never wasted my time
loving, caring and missing you all this while even though it was hell as I received no respond from you. How much you have grown.....
Now, I am really lost. I
want to let go of you like how you've let go of me but how am I to do it? I am strong, but not strong enough. I'm so afraid something bad will end this whole story- and I aren't joking.
Ya Allah, give me strength during this special month of yours to be strong and to stay sane. And keep me close to those whom I love and who in return loves me back. And please distance me away from Mohammad Feizel.I prayed last night to Him, if He bless you & i together, please keep us close and if He doesn't, to keep us far apart from each other. This morning, He made me see that we are
meant to be far apart from each other. With that, I feel so much better.
You have
change your heart, and
InsyAllah I will too.
I love you but it won't be forever.
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